Two years ago I posted this song amidst emotional turmoil and anxiety. The day we met three of our children. A year ago I included it in a blog post, acknowledging the anniversary at the end of a long day of a many hours long escalation. Tonight I do not have the energy to even sort through the emotions of this two year anniversary, and still this song applies. Maybe even more today than it did before. We are not where I imagined we could be. We are not where I hoped we should be. We are not where we prayed we would be. Yet...here we are. There have been mountains moved, though not the ones I would have chosen. The waters have not parted, yet we have not drowned. We still wait on the answers, though they are continuously revealed. So here in that place of waiting, that trust which first pushed us out to walk into the impossible those two long years ago...here is where that trust still stands. I have a guess at what tomorrow holds and it makes me anxious. He already knows our tomorrow and that gives me peace. So we trust for another day.
“When you don’t move the mountains
I needed you to move
When you don’t part the water
I wish I could walk through
When you don’t give the answers
As I cry out to you
I will trust, I will trust
I will trust in you.
Truth is you know what tomorrow brings
There’s not a day ahead you have not seen
So in all things be my life and breath
I want what you want, Lord,
And nothing less
…I will trust, I will trust,
I will trust in you.”
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